Glub!

I really, truly am sorry for leaving ya'll hanging for so unbelievably long. I honestly thought in my heart that I would be back in short order, filling you in on my new craziness. It's just that I underestimated the level of craziness this week would bring....

So, in the last post, I had given you the chance to get caught up on the thing I've been praying about for 3 years. God has been teaching me a 'trust and obey' curriculum... giving me the opportunity to learn to surrender my will to Him, to submit to my husband, and to offer up to the Lord a true willingness to go wherever He sent me.

Then, I waited... I waited and waited and waited.... prayed daily for a year- wondering what was going to happen, where we were going to go. Would it be to WA, near Gretchen? TX, near S4J, GGG, Jen, and D&T? Would it be in CO near Mer? How about VA near Melissa? Maybe PA near Jenster? I couldn't even imagine. I tried to prepare myself for anything.

My sturdy, noble, steadfast husband applied for new jobs every single day following his graduation, for jobs both near and far. Then? we waited.

Suddenly, in February, he was offered two jobs on the exact same week! In this difficult job market, we knew it was a reason to praise God! Because he's a private guy who verymuch would like me not to share his bizness, I can't go into all the details of what happened. I can tell you that I was amazed to see that my prayers for confidence for my husband were answered right then and there. He began to walk taller, and started making more decisions- something else I had been praying for during this time of waiting.

The job J ultimately chose (again, out of respect to him, I have to keep this very general) turned out to be very well suited to his talents and training. Now that he's been working there a week, he's already reporting what a fantastic fit this is for him. The part that amazes me so much is this: his new job is only about 50 minutes from our home... where we'll be staying put for at least a while! It is so strange to have an answer after praying for this for so long! I feel this odd mix of peaceful gratitude and joy that I get to stay here in my hometown and a surreal kind of emotion that I think has this teensy little resemblance to disappointment. Not that I necessarily wanted to move, but God had been working on my heart so much to be willing to go anywhere, it's a little odd to realize we're going to be here for at least a few more years!

I am a million percent proud of my hard working husband, and a jillion percent happy with this answer to prayer. However, this new job is presenting all sorts of new challenges. Though I am so glad for every single aspect, it's frankly wearing me very, very thin. I feel like I am learning what to do, how to keep afloat in this sea of newness and blessings. There are lots of adjustments and changes happening with even more on the horizon, and though it's all good, it's really a LOT. I know I'm not actually in over my head, but right now even one more thing could lead me sputtering and gasping for air.

I am also learning many, many amazing things... I can't wait to tell you guys all about it. For tonight though, I'm afraid I'm going to have to close my eyes for just a couple of minutes. I just can't keep them open one more .....

Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, "Lord, save me!"
Matthew 14:30